It was Monday evening, I was sitting in row 20C on Alaska airlines, and we started to descend into Phoenix. I was returning from an amazing weekend back home in Washington State. Not only did I get to meet my new niece for the first time, I was able to finally attend the Washington State Spring Fair with my nephews and attend my nephew’s fourth birthday party. It was one of the most special weekends home since I moved away almost four years ago.
But with each minute of the descend, anxiety crept in as I thought about my week ahead. As I scheduled out each day, my thoughts started to overwhelm me and the doubts flooded in:
I am not doing anything right.
I am not doing enough.
I need to work harder.
I need be more organized.
Our minds are very persuasive and our thoughts can hinder our intimacy with Christ, which what was happening. With tears in my eyes and heavy doubt in my heart, I whispered “Jesus, what is my purpose?”
Immediately, I heard a voice whisper back, “ME.”
He was so adamant and quick to answer, yet soft and gentle. I knew it was not my own thought. It was so clearly the Lord speaking. Only a few times in my life have I felt I heard the Lord speak so clear like He did yesterday.
I took a deep breath, wiped my tears and in that moment, with such a simple answer, the pressure was taken off. Any striving I felt was gone. Any guilt was washed away. I realized the pressures and expectations of the world was suffocating me, leaving me to forget my true purpose.
Right there in that moment of my weakness, He reminded me that only one Man can give us purpose in our life, not our parents, our children, our spouses, our boss or people we are leading. He reminded me only one Man IS our purpose in life, not our jobs, business, accolades, wealth, travels, or homes. Jesus IS our purpose and when we can live with that being in the forefront of our minds everyday, the pressure to strive for perfection is off!
“Surrender your anxiety! Be silent and stop striving and you will see that I am God. I am the God above all the nations, and I will be exalted throughout the whole earth.” Psalm 46:10
Today, I am inviting you to come alongside me, to loosen your grip on striving, choose faith over fear, choose peace over guilt, and to open your hands to the joy and grace that awaits you.